Pondering

For most of my life, I have struggled with figuring out what I want to be when I grow up. I’m technically grown and still struggling. If I go back to school, I’ll have to jump through some hoops to possibly get financial aid back. If I do not get financial aid, I cannot afford to go back to school.

Then there’s the question of if I do go back to school, what will I go for? And that’s where the real conundrum lies because I think I have exhausted every possible major I would be remotely interested in.

Although looking at the other hand, if I do not go back, what are my options then? Paycheck-to-paycheck living? That’s what I have been doing for about a decade and it’s becoming quite old.